Im not really happy with this whole reshuffling thingy in my band. Honestly, i dont see anything wrong with the way Sam is playing and im kinda used to it. To me, the music is so much fuller ever since he became part of DollTrash.. I think the best way here, is that i not have anything to do with this so called "politics".. Grrr..

Sometimes i dont feel like being part of DollTrash. It's not easy having a boyfriend who's also your band mate and the band is always the number one thing you argue abt. There are alot of things that you disagree on, like the situation above.. Maybe i should leave for awhile, until im ready to play again.. I'm so sick of having to disagree on what you guys are doing and it's just not easy smiling at someone you love when you're disagreeing on everything he's doing in the band. Maybe you should all find sessionist drummer or something. Grrr.. I disagree on finding another guitarist because it's such a chore and it's not always easy to get used to new things. Look at vanessa. Trav initially wanted a keyboardist and at Inez's recommendation, we invited her be part of DT. It turned out that she wasnt what we wanted because she wasnt initiative, sensitive to her keyboards and she was always late for parctices. Worst of all, some of us even told pple she was confirmed.. Then when we decided to kick her out, news has already spread.. Now you guys wanna kick Sam out too? He has already played with us at gigs.. Why cant you guys just give him a chance to do something? At least talk to him, have a meeting? Wouldnt that lessen the risk of a misunderstanding? Why dont you guys just make up your blardy mindss? I really should stay out of this.. I'm so not interested at anything DT does right now. I just wanna play and make music. That's it. Period.

I so cant wait to get my pay.. I wanna go shopping and i wanna get my piercing done!! i've learnt my lesson this time.. (I managed to not blurt out to my parents that im gonna get a tongue piercing!) :D Gonna do all of that next sunday and the best thing is, my parents will not be around! Woooo! :P

This is so fucked up.
My mum called me today while i was at work, finishing up my closing at Spins. She was nagging about why i wasnt at home and it was already 1am(my curfew is at 12 midnight.) I told her i was working and i finish at 1am, but she kept saying that i shouldnt be doing closings. Like why the fuck shouldnt i be? It wouldnt be fair to my colleagues if i was only gonna do openings and mids right? Plus, what was i getting paid for? To only work two shifts? Goddam it.. She doesnt even give me my allowance and she's complaining so much. Why do you think i have to work? Damn.. The pay is shitty, yes.. Well thats the F&B life my dear mummy. Why dont you try joining us as a staff, and then you'd understand the life of spinelli barista.. WTF.. You think getting a job's so easy? I'm studying now, dont forget. I dont hold a diploma or degree yet so dont expect me to get a salary that's more than $1000.. Omiegawd i forgot you dont have brains! From now on, IM DEMANDING FER MY ALLOWANCE!!

Pls leme outta this fucked up life. Now i see why im getting so depressed.

Im not really happy with this whole reshuffling thingy in my band. Honestly, i dont see anything wrong with the way Sam is playing and im kinda used to it. To me, the music is so much fuller ever since he became part of DollTrash.. I think the best way here, is that i not have anything to do with this so called "politics".. Grrr..

Sometimes i dont feel like being part of DollTrash. It's not easy having a boyfriend who's also your band mate and the band is always the number one thing you argue abt. There are alot of things that you disagree on, like the situation above.. Maybe i should leave for awhile, until im ready to play again.. I'm so sick of having to disagree on what you guys are doing and it's just not easy smiling at someone you love when you're disagreeing on everything he's doing in the band. Maybe you should all find sessionist drummer or something. Grrr.. I disagree on finding another guitarist because it's such a chore and it's not always easy to get used to new things. Look at vanessa. Trav initially wanted a keyboardist and at Inez's recommendation, we invited her be part of DT. It turned out that she wasnt what we wanted because she wasnt initiative, sensitive to her keyboards and she was always late for parctices. Worst of all, some of us even told pple she was confirmed.. Then when we decided to kick her out, news has already spread.. Now you guys wanna kick Sam out too? He has already played with us at gigs.. Why cant you guys just give him a chance to do something? At least talk to him, have a meeting? Wouldnt that lessen the risk of a misunderstanding? Why dont you guys just make up your blardy mindss? I really should stay out of this.. I'm so not interested at anything DT does right now. I just wanna play and make music. That's it. Period.

I so cant wait to get my pay.. I wanna go shopping and i wanna get my piercing done!! i've learnt my lesson this time.. (I managed to not blurt out to my parents that im gonna get a tongue piercing!) :D Gonna do all of that next sunday and the best thing is, my parents will not be around! Woooo! :P

This is so fucked up.
My mum called me today while i was at work, finishing up my closing at Spins. She was nagging about why i wasnt at home and it was already 1am(my curfew is at 12 midnight.) I told her i was working and i finish at 1am, but she kept saying that i shouldnt be doing closings. Like why the fuck shouldnt i be? It wouldnt be fair to my colleagues if i was only gonna do openings and mids right? Plus, what was i getting paid for? To only work two shifts? Goddam it.. She doesnt even give me my allowance and she's complaining so much. Why do you think i have to work? Damn.. The pay is shitty, yes.. Well thats the F&B life my dear mummy. Why dont you try joining us as a staff, and then you'd understand the life of spinelli barista.. WTF.. You think getting a job's so easy? I'm studying now, dont forget. I dont hold a diploma or degree yet so dont expect me to get a salary that's more than $1000.. Omiegawd i forgot you dont have brains! From now on, IM DEMANDING FER MY ALLOWANCE!!

Pls leme outta this fucked up life. Now i see why im getting so depressed.